i had a life once. a desire to explore and experience things and meet people. now i'm just waiting around to die. the only thing that keeps me alive is residue from my past life, when i'm in nature and let my mind wander to the past, and feel the faintest hint of an emotion of contentedness or excitement that i used to feel. four years ago isn't that long but i can hardly remember who i was or what i felt like.
i'm only 28 and i have at least sixty more shitty years. might as well fight through the bad and appreciate the good until i return to the dirt, naked as i came in. can't wait for that day to come, when this identity no longer exists. no more hideous monster disfigured by hair loss.
hair loss history: thinned out very suddenly in late 2013 - early 2014, and just stopped there. no temple recession, just evenly spread diffuse thinning, which is always more noticeable on the crown as it's a naturally sparse spot even on full heads. i even look decent from the front, but one look at the back and it's game over. nobody wants to be with the guy with a bald, flat, dead crown. looks like i'm a ****ing grandpa. this life is done for me. i'll try again in the next existence.
the hair loss got just bad enough to turn me into an ugly beast, and the rest of my filaments remain, as if to taunt me. "i can ruin you without making you bald. enjoy the rat's nest." now i have the privilege of being humiliated by barbers every two weeks when i get my pile of fried straw trimmed down.
in terms of life quality there is no difference between nw1 with bald crown, and nw6. either way you're going to look like a piece of shit in 90% of the cases.
i'm only 28 and i have at least sixty more shitty years. might as well fight through the bad and appreciate the good until i return to the dirt, naked as i came in. can't wait for that day to come, when this identity no longer exists. no more hideous monster disfigured by hair loss.
hair loss history: thinned out very suddenly in late 2013 - early 2014, and just stopped there. no temple recession, just evenly spread diffuse thinning, which is always more noticeable on the crown as it's a naturally sparse spot even on full heads. i even look decent from the front, but one look at the back and it's game over. nobody wants to be with the guy with a bald, flat, dead crown. looks like i'm a ****ing grandpa. this life is done for me. i'll try again in the next existence.
the hair loss got just bad enough to turn me into an ugly beast, and the rest of my filaments remain, as if to taunt me. "i can ruin you without making you bald. enjoy the rat's nest." now i have the privilege of being humiliated by barbers every two weeks when i get my pile of fried straw trimmed down.
in terms of life quality there is no difference between nw1 with bald crown, and nw6. either way you're going to look like a piece of shit in 90% of the cases.
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