losing my hair at 20

[johnbath]

shits got me really stressed, ive always been a bit of a childish person in my demeanor and now i feel like im a joke like im trying to be something im not. its turning me into a hermit at 20. my hairline has been receding pretty fast, with a lot of thinning in the temple areas. was shedding heavily earlier this year but that for whatever reason has gone down a decent amount perhaps because i started nizoral. from what ive read it seems like its important to start a treatment, propecia right away because preventing more hair from falling out is far more likely than growing it back so i tried going to my doctor and she said im not going bald when its so obvious that someone i barely know commented "nice combover" after seeing me with wet hair. got a new doctor and she tried every way possible to say it wasnt mpb and it was normal, she was in her 60s and had a somewhat high hairline and tried saying i just have a hairline like hers and thin hair when ive always had a normal hairline and thick coarse hair. tried to say it was because i wore hats which i stopped doing months ago then tried saying it was because i shower daily. its got me really frustrated, even my hair cutter has said im losing my hair and quickly. eventually she said she believed me and that she wouldnt prescribe me propecia till i see a dermatologist which is booked up for six months solid. its got me so pissed i just want to be doing something about it. im trying to get over my suicidal depression and its so hard when every morning a wake up and see i have less hair and every time i get my hair cut i realize ive lost even more than i thought. sometimes i feel like im on a time limit as ****ed as that sounds, like i have to kill myself before im bald so ill actually look like myself in my casket. i feel like im just watching myself get a year older every week, i cant wait six months then another year to TRY something i just want to get on with being a young man. i dont even care about the possible sexual side effects because i have so little confidence i havent approached a girl in three years. i just dont want to feel like people are judging me all the time i already have oily acne prone skin with scars and a permenantly crooked nose that i cant breathe through from my dad punching me in the face as an infant and big ears that are usually bright red and an arm full of stitched up scars.

Wow mate, it seems like you've been through a lot already at your age. Im a year younger than you but my hair has started receding, although i don't shed anything anymore. But you really shouldn't let all these things get to you. I know it's easier said than done. But life has a way at times of just ****ing you over, but the good news is there's nearly always a way around these problems. You just gotta be tough and fight through it. Where do you live? If you're from the UK do you have health insurance with like BUPA? They would be able to fix your nose. If not im sure it would be covered by the NHS. If your doctors is useless go join another doctors! Believe it or not some of them actually care for you and will help you. In terms of girls you just gotta be yourself, personality is as important as looks. But good luck man, it'll all turn out okay