The world doesn't owe you anything

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I was once the most popular guy here, it enabled me to get an extremely hot GF.

Popularity died with that my GF left me. I loved her. She knows I did, but does she care - no.

Past 9 months, to add to it, I have been watching my hairloss. It is agonizing and painful - and yes I have been ****ing depressed.

A part of my journey in this depressive state, is trying to understand why I am so ****ing depressed. I feel like I am bipolar at times, never felt this shit in my whole life. I often feel angry that on top of everything, I get hit by MPB. At least if MPB wasn't a problem - I could be more hopeful about the future.
Also, after frequenting these forums, and talking to other depressed individuals, I think I have finally understand why we all are depressed.

We all simply want to believe the world owes us something.

The sad truth is, the world doesn't owe us shit. That girl you like, and want to be with, has her own needs, and her own agenda, which is much more deeper then the hair on your head.

(I got into my first r/ship with a NW2, had **** all luck when I was a NW0. I also am not conventionally attractive. So I know, hair/looks is not the be all and end all.)

I think the hardest thing for every hairloss sufferer, is acceptance. To understand that it's what has been chucked at us. Yet we all cling onto hope that everything will be 'ok' with histogen etc. We have to learn to love who we are, and accept that everytime we apply for that job, chase that girl, she/it owes nothing to us.

Once we understand that, we may handle rejections better, and ironically our performance with the opposite sex will improve, as we will start to think in more objective manner with low expectations.

But I fear for many - our egos will prevent us from doing this.