Dreaming of hair

[25 going on 65]

Not sure where else to post this, and I'm sorry if it's not too cohesive. Just some thoughts I've had on my mind for awhile.

Sometimes I have these dreams where I have all my hair back - just this beautiful NW1 mane of thick hair like when I was 18-20. I love this while I'm in the dream (I never realize I'm dreaming at the time). I go around talking to people confidently, especially women, flirting with them or even just having a nice conversation without worrying how I look.
Inevitably, though, I wake up. I look at my bed head in the mirror, with the thin areas here and there, and the hairline that has crept back just enough to not frame my face attractively (until I style it... I am so sick of styling to hide hair loss, but that's another subject). Even though my hair loss is considered "early stages," and I have been maintaining it nicely for some time on medication, it really does hurt to wake up to this when I've just dreamed of having my teenage hair back and just living my life like normal.
In the daytime all my old enemies return - bright lights, rain, wind, anxiety. Sometimes when I feel real down, and I'm home, I just lie in bed and wait for sleep. Because at least in my dreams, sometimes, I can be me again. The way I was when I had so much hope and optimism.

I don't want to depress you all and I probably am not even explaining my thoughts/feelings that well. This is just a recurring thing that, on bad days, nearly makes me feel hear broken when the illusion fades and reality sets in.

I hope for the day when these kinds of dreams can become real life for all of us. I know the science and technology are possible. It might happen in a couple years, it might happen in twenty, but knowing that it eventually will happen... that helps me get through my bad days.
At least we have each others' backs. Best of luck to everyone!