Hi guys, stranger321 here
My life has turned from something so awesome to a living hell hole. I started to bald when i was 16 and now, its just getting worse and worse. Around 17 i started going to a homepathy doctor in the hopes that this damn problem would reverse but i am thinking i have been just dealt fake dreams. Some days it looks like my hair is growing and some days it looks like my hair is falling out in clumps ( i put my hand through my hair and get like 5 or 6 hairs). when i was in high school, i knew a couple of idiots who liked to point out the obvious and i was very low on self esteem then. Now i am in university at the age of 18 and i am too scared to talk to anyone about it. All my friends and people younger and older than me still seem to have there hair with no spots. I am just the odd one out. Because of this problem, i can't think straight, i am so down on self esteem. sometimes i just want to run away somewhere far away from people and live alone. I personally feel i don't look attractive and with this crap happening its even harder for me. Everyone i approach seems to play the friend card on me. None of my friends are there to tell me how to deal with my hair loss. They all just brush it off as stupidity but then also point it out. What do i do. Exams are coming and no matter how much of a good day i have, when i come home after a productive day and look at the mirror, i see my wonky looking head. I have contacted a dermatologist but i am pretty sure i am going to have half the hair i have now by the time i get to them ( January 18) i just feel like dying. i just will it would stop. its bad enough that i am 18 and i have about half the hair i used to have. no one seems to care, i dont know what to do. i am only 18, who is ever going to see past the exterior and look at me and like me for the person i am, much less the girl i like. I don't know what to do. I just want it to stop or i just don't want to exist.
My life has turned from something so awesome to a living hell hole. I started to bald when i was 16 and now, its just getting worse and worse. Around 17 i started going to a homepathy doctor in the hopes that this damn problem would reverse but i am thinking i have been just dealt fake dreams. Some days it looks like my hair is growing and some days it looks like my hair is falling out in clumps ( i put my hand through my hair and get like 5 or 6 hairs). when i was in high school, i knew a couple of idiots who liked to point out the obvious and i was very low on self esteem then. Now i am in university at the age of 18 and i am too scared to talk to anyone about it. All my friends and people younger and older than me still seem to have there hair with no spots. I am just the odd one out. Because of this problem, i can't think straight, i am so down on self esteem. sometimes i just want to run away somewhere far away from people and live alone. I personally feel i don't look attractive and with this crap happening its even harder for me. Everyone i approach seems to play the friend card on me. None of my friends are there to tell me how to deal with my hair loss. They all just brush it off as stupidity but then also point it out. What do i do. Exams are coming and no matter how much of a good day i have, when i come home after a productive day and look at the mirror, i see my wonky looking head. I have contacted a dermatologist but i am pretty sure i am going to have half the hair i have now by the time i get to them ( January 18) i just feel like dying. i just will it would stop. its bad enough that i am 18 and i have about half the hair i used to have. no one seems to care, i dont know what to do. i am only 18, who is ever going to see past the exterior and look at me and like me for the person i am, much less the girl i like. I don't know what to do. I just want it to stop or i just don't want to exist.
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