I am now 28 and at the early stages of MPB, and it maybe has been happening for around two years, it is only now starting to afect the way i style my hair because temples look a little thinner, but it's only noticeable to me at this point. I have spoken to family about it and i even mentioned how much it is getting me down, but they are all really flippant about it and say things like " oh get over it " even when i needed someone to just talk to about it they just didn't want to know, and to be honest it made me pretty angry.
Now i will admit something here that is a little embarrassing, i was so down about this one day i actually cried about it, now i'll tell you now i do not cry often, i have been through some bad things in my life and dealt with them, but for some reason this is just different maybe it's because i have no control over it, it was not long ago, there is a girl i really like and we were talking about hair loss in men and i asked her how she felt about it and she said in a nice way though, that she didn't find it attractive ( remembering that my hair loss isn't noticeable yet ) now she is a really nice girl never horrible to anyone and was just being honest, but this did get me down and i haven't asked her out because of this, because i know i'll be there one day.
I feel like i'm losing my identity, my youth, and my confidence has been smashed, but yet people just make light of it, even a stupid joke that is about as original as a brick on the head, it scares me that people will see me in a different way, i mean i would love to be able to say screw it buzz my head down and get on with it, but i'm really stuggling, sorry if this seems like a rant, but i have to let it out somewhere.
Now i will admit something here that is a little embarrassing, i was so down about this one day i actually cried about it, now i'll tell you now i do not cry often, i have been through some bad things in my life and dealt with them, but for some reason this is just different maybe it's because i have no control over it, it was not long ago, there is a girl i really like and we were talking about hair loss in men and i asked her how she felt about it and she said in a nice way though, that she didn't find it attractive ( remembering that my hair loss isn't noticeable yet ) now she is a really nice girl never horrible to anyone and was just being honest, but this did get me down and i haven't asked her out because of this, because i know i'll be there one day.
I feel like i'm losing my identity, my youth, and my confidence has been smashed, but yet people just make light of it, even a stupid joke that is about as original as a brick on the head, it scares me that people will see me in a different way, i mean i would love to be able to say screw it buzz my head down and get on with it, but i'm really stuggling, sorry if this seems like a rant, but i have to let it out somewhere.
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