just venting

[nisey1]

i'm 43 yr old female... started experiencing hair loss about 10 yrs ago .... at first i didn't think much of it... but at some point I just couldn't ignore it ... i would shower by myself so that my husband (boyfriend at the time) wouldn't notice... or hurry up and clean off the pillow case so he couldn't see all the hair left behind... I just couldn't hold it in anymore.. after about 2 years I finally just said something to him because i just couldn't take it anymore.... if he was going to leave i just wanted to deal with it ..... thank god he was so understanding and assured me that he would never leave no matter how much hair i had on my head !! needless to say this didn't take away all my fears and insecurities.... my husband knew but I still have not publicly said anything to anyone else... i cut my hair shorter ..... this was just a temp fix... hoping ppl wouldn't notice... it's like the purple elephant in the room... I know folks are looking and wondering but of course no-one says anything .... i'm def not the same person... i try real hard to appreciate all the things i do have..... I am such a strong person, but this thing has really got me !! sometimes I just want to shave it all off because i'm so tired of trying to cover up balding spots... it's so depressing.... I've come across this website and thought... Thank God i am not the only one ... I hope one day i can come to grips with this and just be happy !!!