Hair transplant secret slowly exposed

[hopefullee]

My hair started thinning at age 21. In 2006, at the age of 26 I had stabilized my hair loss on finasteride, and had my first FUT to fill in my receeding hair line (Norwood III). In retrospect, it wasn’t a very good surgery, with very poor density and too straight a hairline. I had enough on top though to wear my hair forward and cover it up. This was before on line forums like this one, and I really didn’t have much to go on other than what my surgeon told me. He assured me that as long as I stayed on finasteride I would be okay.

I am now 40 years old. I have had 3 more FUTs over the past 13 years, but now as I continue to thin out on top, I can no longer cover things up. My hairline is too straight, and has a pluggy appearance. I have never told anyone about my surgeries, but now as my hair is steadily thinning out, it is becoming more and more obvious that I have had work done, poor quality work at that.

I am severely depressed and have isolated myself. I have stopped going out with friends, avoiding all social gatherings where I can’t wear a cap. And even when I do go out wearing a cap, I feel uncomfortable for deceiving people. I am slowly losing my mind.

I don’t think my hairline can be repaired at this point, having had 4 FUTs already. And I know that living in hope of further advances in hair loss treatment is a naïve way of approaching my situation. I am at a loss.

Hair transplant surgery was the worst decision I have ever made, and I feel like it has destroyed my life.