Please how do I make it stop.

[bollo665]

Hey guys I'm 20 years old I'm slick bald I've had a bald spot since middle school. I've been made fun of for it by girlfriends and random people and it's hurt me so much. I've been a prisoner to my hat for years I'm so uncomfortable with myself that I wear a hoodie with the good up all the time. because I can't stand the sight of myself. last week I left work crying three times because I just kept freaking out and freaking out. my mind is so fixated on it because my head shape is so ****ed up and there is nothing I can do about it. Everyone tells me I'm fine but my head is so horizontal and so long and my forehead protrudes over my eyebrows. I want to kill myself so bad I can't escape my nightmare and I've been trying. I've been lifting weights I've been meditating to try to calm myself thinking positive but nothing helps I've had a shaved head for a year and it hasn't gotten any easier. I don't know what else to do. here are pictures.
http://imgur.com/a/dM6e4Yx