Suffering from depression for a couple years, suicidal thoughts...I am lost.

[Vunoo]

Thank you very much for taking your time and helping a stranger out, guys. I trully, TRULLY appreciate it. I am trying to surpass the sadness that is ongoing inside me, and while hair loss may not be the only cause, it has always been something that made me feel insecure. There have been way too many events going on at the same time that didn't help my self-esteem either.

Regarding @zlatan, I go ocasionally to the gym and play tenis now and then. The thing is that those guys you mencioned represent the more masculine/matura/alpha males, with strong faces and facial tones. The clean/buzz cut doesn't favor everyone as you probably know it. And I'm pretty sure it doesn't favor me. I'm a slim white boy who has pretty much no facial hair. I've always rocked that Troye Sivan-ish look and having lack of hair will turn me into a dead corpse. Now I'm not saying that continuous gym sessions won't improve my overall structure, I'm sure it will. But it won't suddenly give you a face that will rock a clean cut.

@BaldBearded, thanks for the tips once again. I don't have many folks that I can talk to regarding this situation. The dermatologists around here (or at least the one I've been going to) aren't trully worried about your physical/mental health, and if the cause is genetic baldness they'll just say "Oh, thats male pattern baldness, mate. keep on taking finasteride and minoxidil and hope for the best". I'm there listening to it like "Well, THANK YOU sherlock for telling me to do what I've been doing since I was 17."...