Suffering from depression for a couple years, suicidal thoughts...I am lost.

[Falcon]

All might not agree with me but you are young and most likely have a very narrow mindset and focus.
So you should keep taking what you do minoxidil and finasteride but take a rest about your hair solution.


Go to the doctor and get hormone blood work done.
Who knows, you might have an underlying condition, such as you low testosterone.

If you have suicidal thoughts, it is time to seek professional help.
Focus and try to improve these problems first.

After that, you could train in the gym and eat properly and gain some muscle.
Fullbody workout 3 time a week, with heavy compound movements, Squat, Deadlift ect.


As a person with faith, I advice you to read about Islam.
It is a book of guidens and it deeper layer of understanding about the world we live in.

There is strength in faith and it can help in adversity, so google quran translations english.