Why does everything have to go wrong in my life? I'm so ugly.

[ihatemylife]

I'm 18 years old and everything in my life has always been terrible. My father was abusive and died when I was young, my mother is never around, I have no money in a pretty affluent area, and if I didn't have enough going on, I literally hate myself now with a passion to the point where I can't sleep at night from worrying about my hair because guess what? I'm 18 and I'm further into balding than any 18 year old I've ever seen and I'm the only person so young that I've seen anywhere near me in real life. Hell, all of the adults I know have more hair than me. So yeah, I seem to be doomed to life a horrible life and now I'm going to be forever alone too. I'm way too ugly to ever have a girlfriend and I don't want to hear the "life is better bald" shit because I tried it, hated it, and couldn't leave my house for weeks unless I had to for work (where I'm lucky to work in a professional environment with adults who wouldn't say anything). But I've had comments about it in school, overheard family talking about it, and and had an anxiety attack because I wouldn't take off my hat to have a picture taken for a school ID. I don't want to be bald and be the only bald person I know and I don't want to live my life alone because no one will ever date me when I look like this. I'm sorry to be so negative and I do have a lot else going for me but this is a pressing issue in my life that I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone I actually know about and I'd like some empathy and support and this seems a good place to do it because I can be somewhat anonymous. Thanks guys. https://imgur.com/a/Ijo81