Scared of getting transplant now

[hair leaving]

After reading post in here I dont know if im more inclined to get at HT or more inclined to not have one. I know one thing i wear hats everyday and i hate it. If the wind is blowing hard I become very nervous that it will blow off and everyone will start laughing. I have not come to grips wiith it and doesnt seem like i will. But after reading the posts about shock loss, and hair from the donor areas not looking like they belong i dont know wether to do it or not. Has anyone had a ht that they are truly satisfied with? Also when i look at the HTs consultation forms, the funniest question is desired results or what are you looking for? I am looking for my hair to be back as it once was what is anyone looking for? Also if you get one do you have to get another to keep the results from the first one? Bottom line i want to have one but if i will look worst afterwards then i did before who wants that, and also if it only last for a yr or 2 who can afford that?