I seem to have lost a lot of hair in a very short space of time and it's really freaking me out. From pictures taken in May/June time I have a full and very thick head of hair. Then in late July I had my hair cut quite short and decided to just spike it up a little rather than sweep it over like I usually do when it's a little longer. I went to a pub to meet a friend and just happened to catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror opposite from where I was sitting and it honestly looked like I had no hair on the top of my head. I initially shrugged it off but literally thirty seconds later my friend said "mate are you losing your hair?"
I returned home that night and had a proper look and to my horror it looked like I had lost loads of hair across the top of my head. No recession in the temple areas though. My girlfriend said I was just being paranoid but I know my hair and I know it is nowhere near as thick as it was just six months ago.
Fast forward to December and there has been no improvement, I'm not really sure if it has gotten worse since then or just stayed the same but I've had a few comments from friends about how thin my hair looks, my girlfriend is still in denial.
My dad went bald in his mid twenties so I wasn't exactly shocked that it has started to happen to me. I'm surprised at just how gutted I am though. I wanted to burst into tears when I first realised it was happening. I always had thick black hair and it really complemented my blue eyes. I think I'm going to look horrendous when I shave it all off. My confidence has been virtually destroyed over night.
What scares me the most is that my girlfriend of four years will fall out of love with me. She says she wouldn't care if I went bald but when I bring up the prospect of me shaving my hair off she freaks out. I feel ugly and unwanted and have started to wear caps when I go out in public and sometimes even around the house.
It probably sounds pathetic but I'm even starting to think about not having kids for fear I pass the gene on to my little boy should I have one.
I always hoped I'd get my hair from my mother's dad who had a full head of hair all his life but it seems my dad's shitty genes have won out. I feel miserable all the time and try to avoid looking in the mirror. When my friends make jokes about me losing my hair I put on a brave face but inside I'm dying.
I debated taking finasteride but the horror stories online about permanent sexual side effects put me off. I guess this is something I'll just have to learn to live with. I have a friend who started losing his hair at 18 and when I asked him about it he said he couldn't care less about losing his hair. I wish I could feel that way!
I try to take solace in the fact that I'm 6 foot tall with a nice lean build but in my head that will all be irrelevant once my hair is all gone. I wouldn't blame my girlfriend if she left me.
Sorry for the long post.
I returned home that night and had a proper look and to my horror it looked like I had lost loads of hair across the top of my head. No recession in the temple areas though. My girlfriend said I was just being paranoid but I know my hair and I know it is nowhere near as thick as it was just six months ago.
Fast forward to December and there has been no improvement, I'm not really sure if it has gotten worse since then or just stayed the same but I've had a few comments from friends about how thin my hair looks, my girlfriend is still in denial.
My dad went bald in his mid twenties so I wasn't exactly shocked that it has started to happen to me. I'm surprised at just how gutted I am though. I wanted to burst into tears when I first realised it was happening. I always had thick black hair and it really complemented my blue eyes. I think I'm going to look horrendous when I shave it all off. My confidence has been virtually destroyed over night.
What scares me the most is that my girlfriend of four years will fall out of love with me. She says she wouldn't care if I went bald but when I bring up the prospect of me shaving my hair off she freaks out. I feel ugly and unwanted and have started to wear caps when I go out in public and sometimes even around the house.
It probably sounds pathetic but I'm even starting to think about not having kids for fear I pass the gene on to my little boy should I have one.
I always hoped I'd get my hair from my mother's dad who had a full head of hair all his life but it seems my dad's shitty genes have won out. I feel miserable all the time and try to avoid looking in the mirror. When my friends make jokes about me losing my hair I put on a brave face but inside I'm dying.
I debated taking finasteride but the horror stories online about permanent sexual side effects put me off. I guess this is something I'll just have to learn to live with. I have a friend who started losing his hair at 18 and when I asked him about it he said he couldn't care less about losing his hair. I wish I could feel that way!
I try to take solace in the fact that I'm 6 foot tall with a nice lean build but in my head that will all be irrelevant once my hair is all gone. I wouldn't blame my girlfriend if she left me.
Sorry for the long post.
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