How do you do it?!?!

[jamesst11]

I have been chatting on facebook with this super cute girl I went to high school with. We were always into each other and I am finding her more and more amazing. We share poetry, music, kind words and all these wonderful lovely things. But how? How when you have such horrible hair and a head disfigured from a transplant do you pursue a relationship? It has gotten so bad that I can barely stand to be seen in front of strangers. How do I hang out with her? How do I even invite her over? I don't understand how anyone that has been through this can cope, in society I mean. I have just lost so much of myself and don't know what to do. Shave it? I think I would look 40 and have a huge scar on my head. cut it short? wouldn't look normal - the native thinner hair and the thick 2 and 3 unit graphs. Continue to comb it over and hide the poorly spaced transplants at my hair line and more and more look like Donald f*cking Trump.

There is no solution. At least not right now. I am such a good guy and always have been and have so much to offer someone, that being completely f*cked from one mistake seems like a horrendously cruel punishment from some God. I have been drinking and this is my rant. At least I feel comfortable and accepted on here. What the hell do I do? I am exhausted all the time. I am anxious all the time. This is against my nature because. I have never been like this. If this annoying ranting serves as anything right now, let it be this - THINK HARD AND DO RESEARCH before getting a damn HT.