The hairloss continues (after 5000 grafts).

[VictimOfDHT]

I barely have the strength to type as my depression and anger are literally consuming me to the point where I feel so dizzy and like I'm going to faint but I don't know what else to do right now.
Some of you may remember me but I basically have had 6 HTs over the past decade and half totalling about 5000 grafts (all in the frontal part of my head as my hair on top and crown was close to full) yet my hair kept thinning in the transplanted area. I would always tell myself maybe it is just native hair that I was losing even though I knew it wasn't the case. It wasn't "seasonal shedding" either -if there is such a thing to begin with- I could see the thinning clearly happening as days went by. Today, just took a closer look -even though I dread looking in the mirror - and I almost collapsed. I literally look like a norwood 3 if I pull my hair to the back. I am balder than I've ever been in the past. So, there is no more denying it any more. After 5000 grafts and $23000, and also putting my whole life on hold for all those years, I am coming to the realization it's all for NOTHING.

It's a fact that for some of us, life will always f**k them in more ways than one. No matter what they do life, luck, fate or whatever you wanna call it will always throw obstacles at them and will knock them down no matter what they do. I've always had bad luck. In fact, it's not just bad, it's horrifyingly bad and have had it since I was a child. Even way before I started getting HTs I'd feared that I'd be one of the unlucky ones whose HT wouldn't fix the problem. Well....I was right .... as usual.

Now I don't know if this loss is going to continue to where there is no more transplanted hairs left or what I am going to do when the scars become visible. This is a nightmare.

Nothing more to do or say.

I hope god is happy torturing his creation.