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    Default I can't imagine ever being happy again

    I can't take it. I've been thinning since I was 18. Only an incredibly thick mop of hair in the first place has meant I've lasted this long. It starts off-ok my hair doesn't style as good, then ok I look a little worse than I used to but I can handle it, then you start catching the odd angle here and there that you don't like but you can hide it with hairstyles, then the times you don't like what you see in the mirror become more and more frequent, then they start to take over, and its only at exactly the right length, with exactly the right hairstyle, in the exact right conditions, ie no rain no wind no sweating. Now at 26 I've reached the point I've dreaded for so long. Every time I see myself I want to ****ing smash my skull off the mirror. I want to keep smashing it until I am just ****ing dead. I can be going about my day perfectly happy and a trip to the bathroom and a glance in the mirror makes me instantly not give a **** about anything. I went on holiday and my friends have put me in charge of collating all our photos. Every time I try I literally end up in a depression that lasts days or even weeks. I cannot stand the sight of myself. Especially next to them. They've all grown into themselves as we've gotten older. They all still feel 'young'. I'm 26 and I could pass as 40. But worse than that is the unavoidable slide down pecking order of respect. Yes all the jokes are just banter, and they would deny it if I said this to them, but its subtle. People react to you differently. They think they're better than you. My view of young bald people was the same even when I was 16. They were sad cases to be pitied but it would never be me.

    If I suited being bald I wouldn't mind. I don't. At all. I had really thick hair and it kept everything in proportion. I have a big head and big features, and with big hair, I was actually quite good looking. Now I'm closer to being ugly. I tried propecia for a couple of years. It slowed it down, but didn't stop it altogether, gave me weak erections, and cost a lot. So its not a sustainable option. And the results aren't even worth it for me.

    The worst is knowing that I shouldn't feel bad about this. People get cancer, they have accidents, they lose loved ones. But I don't know how to shake the feeling that I'll just be passing time through life. Just finding a way to live in a socially acceptable enough manner until I die. Maybe killing myself if god forbid my parents weren't around. I couldn't do that to them. But I hate this body I'm in and its only going to get worse. My Dad and Uncle had lost nearly all their hair by the time they were 30.

    Ye so **** this. Sorry for the language. I have so much anger and there's nowhere for it to go. I often have to restrain myself from picking up a golf club and smashing everything in sight. I can talk myself out of it for a few days. Focus on the good things in life. Try and change my thoughts. But I can't change that feeling that floors me again when I see myself in the mirror. If I never had to look at myself again I might be ok. But mostly I feel like I'm just going to spend my whole life one step above killing myself.

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    I'm in the same situation as you. I'm turning 25 soon. I thought I would be able to take it but it's really starting to get to me.

    I don't think it's fair to call someone ugly if they take care of themselves (dress nicely, haircut, fit, etc), but having a receded hairline is ugliness in plain sight.

    I shave my head everyday and I am getting f***ing sick of it. Always worrying about cutting myself.

    I never wanted to hide behind hats but recently I've become ashamed of having my head out in public. You can still easily see a receded hairline and it REALLY makes me look ugly as f***.

    How unlucky do you have to be to go bald in your twenties? I know other people have it worse with health problems but it's like we're allowed to enjoy life but at the very minimum.

    We've been placed on the sidelines by society. I know we can make the most of the hand we're dealt but that is ****ING hard as hell, where do you get that kind of energy and motivation from when baldness has already depleted that.

    and I can relate a lot when you say one look in the mirror makes you not want to do anything. When I see myself looking ugly, I INSTANTLY become depressed. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to THINK at all. I don't want to be in public, I don't want to be driving on the road. I lose all hope for my future and then I start thinking of not existing anymore.

    I'm just hoping for a cure in the future while I work on other things like being fit, etc. I think that's all we can do.

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    Quote Originally Posted by ThisSucksDude View Post
    I shave my head everyday and I am getting f***ing sick of it. Always worrying about cutting myself.
    I don't shave it but I trim it down to 2 mm once per week. Much more safe. And as I said above I am NW7. Of course this still leaves the glorious horseshoe pattern visible but I don't care anymore. I look at the positive side of the situation, which is minimal hair care and maintenance and high versatility in all weather conditions, although a cap is very often necessary for protection.

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    I relate to a lot that has been written in this thread. The status on my hair is not so bad as some guys here but it seems like my hair loss is getting worse every week. It is something that puts me down and something I will never be able to accept. I guess I am still in denial... I guess that is why we became members of this forum after all.

    But I can also cheer you up. I have the feeling that I am not getting less layed than all the other guys I know. And hair loss is only one small factor in our overall chances that we have to attract others. My brother for instance is far not the most handsome guy. He does not have much hair loss but he is smaller than most girls and has a face that none would consider as handsome. Nevertheless he always gets girls because he is charming and sociable.

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    Quote Originally Posted by VFrankenstein View Post
    Nevertheless he always gets girls because he is charming and sociable.
    Ye loads of people say things like that and I get it. But for me I was always an introverted person. With my hair I was shy, but underneath that quietly confident and laid back. Without my hair that has turned into socially awkward and chronically insecure. I try and be more outgoing in social situations than I used to be but it just comes off as awkward. I'm an introvert trying to be in an extrovert. I was never the type to be the centre of attention and tell stories and start conversations with people at parties etc. But girls seemed drawn to me. It is a really bad way to be I know that but it was just the way it was for me. Without the initial physical attraction I really don't know how to get girls to like me. And I wasn't some ****y good looking guy, even when I liked how I looked I was really shy. I think that's why losing my hair has had such a huge effect on me. It's really all about confidence. I know there's loads of people who can handle it and are successful and do well with women, but they were probably built that way even before they lost their hair in terms of confidence. It grates me a little when people give that type of advice using them as examples. It's like oh ok I'll just go and re-wire my whole personality. But ye, I know that's the only option, to change the way you see yourself, and I'm trying. I'm trying to see myself as the things that I do and the things that I say and the opinions that I have instead of the face I see in the mirror. But its hard as hell and I haven't managed it yet. That's me in the mirror and I ****ing hate myself.

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    Quote Originally Posted by recedoroy View Post
    I'm trying to see myself as the things that I do and the things that I say and the opinions that I have instead of the face I see in the mirror. But its hard as hell and I haven't managed it yet. That's me in the mirror and I ****ing hate myself.
    It's fine to feel beaten about you body but you really have to understand that we are not our body or not even our thoughts. If you come to understand that you are not your body a lot problems will be solved by itself. This is some Asian philosophy and belief which is always helpful for me.

    If you feel like your confidence suffers from the way your hair looks like then you can still focus on some other aspects of the body. I do exercise and it helps me with my confidence. If you think about what physical aspects women really look at when they meet a men you will realize that they care about how your hands look like, how you smell and how you dress yourself. So it all comes down to the fact that you take care of your body (what you obviously do if you treat your hair loss) and that you can also handle a relationship well.

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    it sucks my cousin lost his hair at 19 he dressed up nice was the life of the party he worked it well i think in your mind your a social outcast but thats far from the truth i was in LA this summer i seen a guy at the beach jogging he had a very short almost bald buzz cut the guy was in top shape tanned he looked great and he looked the best around and was far from a outcast i wanted to buzz my hair that day and become a fitness nut but i worked hard to get my hair back on track and im fit from good jeans passed to me

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    Quote Originally Posted by recedoroy View Post
    I can't take it. I've been thinning since I was 18. Only an incredibly thick mop of hair in the first place has meant I've lasted this long. It starts off-ok my hair doesn't style as good, then ok I look a little worse than I used to but I can handle it, then you start catching the odd angle here and there that you don't like but you can hide it with hairstyles, then the times you don't like what you see in the mirror become more and more frequent, then they start to take over, and its only at exactly the right length, with exactly the right hairstyle, in the exact right conditions, ie no rain no wind no sweating. Now at 26 I've reached the point I've dreaded for so long. Every time I see myself I want to ****ing smash my skull off the mirror. I want to keep smashing it until I am just ****ing dead. I can be going about my day perfectly happy and a trip to the bathroom and a glance in the mirror makes me instantly not give a **** about anything. I went on holiday and my friends have put me in charge of collating all our photos. Every time I try I literally end up in a depression that lasts days or even weeks. I cannot stand the sight of myself. Especially next to them. They've all grown into themselves as we've gotten older. They all still feel 'young'. I'm 26 and I could pass as 40. But worse than that is the unavoidable slide down pecking order of respect. Yes all the jokes are just banter, and they would deny it if I said this to them, but its subtle. People react to you differently. They think they're better than you. My view of young bald people was the same even when I was 16. They were sad cases to be pitied but it would never be me.

    If I suited being bald I wouldn't mind. I don't. At all. I had really thick hair and it kept everything in proportion. I have a big head and big features, and with big hair, I was actually quite good looking. Now I'm closer to being ugly. I tried propecia for a couple of years. It slowed it down, but didn't stop it altogether, gave me weak erections, and cost a lot. So its not a sustainable option. And the results aren't even worth it for me.

    The worst is knowing that I shouldn't feel bad about this. People get cancer, they have accidents, they lose loved ones. But I don't know how to shake the feeling that I'll just be passing time through life. Just finding a way to live in a socially acceptable enough manner until I die. Maybe killing myself if god forbid my parents weren't around. I couldn't do that to them. But I hate this body I'm in and its only going to get worse. My Dad and Uncle had lost nearly all their hair by the time they were 30.

    Ye so **** this. Sorry for the language. I have so much anger and there's nowhere for it to go. I often have to restrain myself from picking up a golf club and smashing everything in sight. I can talk myself out of it for a few days. Focus on the good things in life. Try and change my thoughts. But I can't change that feeling that floors me again when I see myself in the mirror. If I never had to look at myself again I might be ok. But mostly I feel like I'm just going to spend my whole life one step above killing myself.
    This really touched home for me. I am 33 and I am having the same feelings as you man. Most of my friends are balding or already bald and for me this is just f*cking torture. I have lost most of my hair in the last year and a half mostly due to a hair transplant that caused horrible TE. No one understands. It was my mistake. Every day I see people in wheel chairs, people with horrible conditions or diseases and I HATE feeling like this about something that I perpetuated and something that is just part of my genetics. I am sorry dude. Most of us on this site are on here because we feel the same way you do. I have always been a handsome dude and girls have always pursued me. When I look in the mirror I want to f*cking break it. Tonight my girlfriend said to me, "I think you should just shave your head". I asked her, "why do you say that? Is it because you think my hair looks like shit or because you know how much hair loss is effecting me?". She kept saying, "Because I just want you to be happy" blah blah then staring directly at my hair sprayed shiney f*cking hair that has been combed in a certain way to cover my balding spots. It seems that every day it just gets worst. I am sorry man. This is horrible and what's worst is that most people don't even understand.

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    Im in a similar spot! But im 19, right now none of my friends have started balding, not close. I dont know people near my age that are balding. I know its hard, and sometime i try to tell myself that when i will be older i will realized it was just hair and that i was over reacting, but no...im young and i dont wanma wait till im 40 to not give a **** about my hair, i want to enjoy this years as a normal young person. i may be a NW2 or 3, im taking propecia and hope at least keep it that way, but if not i will focus on other things, im pretty fit, and am planning to cpntinue growinc muscle, y can grow a beard and honestly i know that i will have a great income since i start working as i will get my father business, and tjos are the things that will keep me from making my hair secondary! Try to get ripped in the gym, and enjoy life! Travel and get to know people! Thats the best thing we can do! try no stress so much about!

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    Quote Originally Posted by faman View Post
    Im in a similar spot! But im 19, right now none of my friends have started balding, not close. I dont know people near my age that are balding.
    It is not common but it can happen. For me hair loss started at 15-16. There was no visible baldness though until some years later. It was an aggressive form of diffuse hair loss, leading quickly to terminal NW7 stage in my late 20's. Not funny I can assure you. In fact, I have no idea how it feels to have a head with full hair thickness as a young man, in the start of adulthood (17-19 years old). This is rare even in a forum like this.

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