18 years old and and almost bald

[420grower]

hello this is my story, I am 18 years old and my hair is around norwood 4-5. I didnt think much of my hairloss once it started maybe because I was young and stupid or it wasnt all that bad. Once many of my family members died I fell into a pit of depression and then my dog died, I snaped I left my final year of high school which I could of finshed easily. I didnt have much self esteem to begin with due to the depression and then hairloss hit me BAM depression sky rocketed. I would look in the mirror everyday start to cry and just think to myself this isnt me. I slowly lost all my friends even my best friend left me. I never imagined at the age of 18 I would living this kind of life style, scared to take my beanie off, looking at hairtransplant video every ****ing day, constantly searching fourms for ways to save my hair and not leaving the house. Its build this social anxiety to a point I dont want to live anymore, I have no one to talk about my issues and its just building up to a point of having suicidal thoughts regularly. I dont wanna die but I dont want to live life like this, I want to travel the world, make friends, party, get in relationships. The only hope I have now is a hairtransplant but im very poor. EVEN IF IT TAKES all my money im doing it. Hairloss has ruined the last 2 years of my life.
ive been on finasteride for 6 months and just started monoxdil with ru58841 about a week ago. My hair looks llike it got abit worse over that time but might be due to shedding who knows
if you want pics pm me