....I wanted dreadlocks.

[cuprous]

Hair loss sucks! But you have to own it.. Just having a "this can't be happening to me" attitude is going to do nothing but stress you out and make life miserable.

I hear that you're broke but you can get a six month supply of kirkland minoxidil on amazon for $25. That's 15 pennies a day. You can afford that. Start there ASAP.

And get your health in order.. diabetes probably does not help your hair cause at all. Running, exercise, pushups, whatever, are all free.

I hear you on not having the right head for being bald. On the bright side (dark side?) at least black dudes usually look better with a shaved head. But yeah, it still sucks. Good luck on your path to dreads.