This disease is affecting me more than usual today...

[NOhairNOlife]

I don't know if it's the crappy weather outside or what, but I feel more depressed today than usual about my hairloss. I went to go get a haircut today and the guy that usually cuts my hair wasn't there, so I went with one of the other hairstylists. While she was cutting my hair she said, "what's wrong you seem sad all the time, you use to be so joyful and full of life" (I've been going to the same salon for over 15 years). I just said, "nothing is wrong" and she kept persisting, she's like I know something is going on with you I can tell, I see it in your eyes. I know this sounds so stupid (considering I'm a grown man) but it almost brought me to tears, to think what my future holds for me, because I know there's nothing more I can do to stop this disease (I'm already on Fin, 5% Minoxidil and just starting dermarolling). The thing is when I style my hair you can't really tell I'm balding, but I know, it's always there in the back of my mind gnawing at my confidence.

I was really hoping with all the snow/freezing rain we got today that my car would slide off the road and I'd hit a tree / pole and die. It really makes me sad that I've ended up at this point in my life.