Need Support

[Karlton]

Hey guys,
I was just hoping to get some support today. I have been managing my hair loss with finasteride for 12-13 years, but I'm feeling severe anxiety about it's effectiveness wearing off. I tried the buzz cut thing and it's not working for me. I tried a #2 buzz, a #1 , nothing is looking right.

I am pretty much paralyzed with fear and anxiety, and now I am regretting my latest buzz cut. I talked to my psychologist, and it's the same old thing. I fear I'm heading to a really dark place. I have spent the last week in bed, or staring in the mirror. Nothing seems to help.

I'm seriously considering scheduling my first FUE, but I am terrified of accelerating my hairloss, and also very apprehensive about setting myself up for having to get future transplants. I haven't lost a ton of hair yet, but my forehead is really big, so I'm already starting to look like a NW3. I'm thinking maybe 1000-1200 grafts would flatten out my hair line and buy some time, but I'm always on the fence.

I'm filled with fear over dealing with friends and family with this buzz cut, but even with my hair, I am not much better. Need some helpful words today. I'm feeling really hopeless now that the shaved head thing didn't work out. It's looking more and more like a life of hats. I don't want to wear a hat, but I honestly feel like my head just doesn't look even remotely typical without hair.

Thanks for taking the time to read.