I just can't do it anymore.
I can't pretend everything's alright and that I'll be fine. I can't imagine another moment in my life where I'm not consumed with this bullshit. It's all I think about and the only thing that prevents me from being even slightly optimistic.
I have to start college in the next 2 weeks, a whole new life with all new people, and I don't think I can do it. At the moment, I'm in no shape to be starting a new life. I can't see myself becoming the man I'd always wanted to be. I can't even leave the house without spending an hour fixing and trying to conceal my hair. Living on my home doesn't even seem possible.
The college I'm to attend is top tier (one of HYP). It's not like I'll be among average individuals: I'm to be among the elite of the elite. Rich people, politicians, celebrities, etc...are all to be congregating within my campus, and I'm expected to stand out for future employment opportunities? My struggle with hair loss makes it difficult to even read a book let alone earn top grades at one of the hardest universities in the country.
It's too much. My hair loss and receding hairline has sapped literally every ounce of courage, motivation, and confidence out of my being. I feel like a shell of my former self, and I'm only 18. I have nothing to fall back on, my family is essentially poor and are unemployed. How am I supposed to shift the trend when I can't even look at myself in the mirror without being disgusted by what's on my head (or what's left)
How do you guys who are balding in mid-late teens deal with this shit.
I can't pretend everything's alright and that I'll be fine. I can't imagine another moment in my life where I'm not consumed with this bullshit. It's all I think about and the only thing that prevents me from being even slightly optimistic.
I have to start college in the next 2 weeks, a whole new life with all new people, and I don't think I can do it. At the moment, I'm in no shape to be starting a new life. I can't see myself becoming the man I'd always wanted to be. I can't even leave the house without spending an hour fixing and trying to conceal my hair. Living on my home doesn't even seem possible.
The college I'm to attend is top tier (one of HYP). It's not like I'll be among average individuals: I'm to be among the elite of the elite. Rich people, politicians, celebrities, etc...are all to be congregating within my campus, and I'm expected to stand out for future employment opportunities? My struggle with hair loss makes it difficult to even read a book let alone earn top grades at one of the hardest universities in the country.
It's too much. My hair loss and receding hairline has sapped literally every ounce of courage, motivation, and confidence out of my being. I feel like a shell of my former self, and I'm only 18. I have nothing to fall back on, my family is essentially poor and are unemployed. How am I supposed to shift the trend when I can't even look at myself in the mirror without being disgusted by what's on my head (or what's left)
How do you guys who are balding in mid-late teens deal with this shit.
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