dilemma dilemma dilemma

[konfusion]

so Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I did not use Avodart, it's Thursday today and my scalp feels more relaxed, my itch is reduced and I see less hair in the drain (but the same amount when combing, there is no change in that).
I am starting to get surprised, I always expected that the drugs stopped working since I had the terrible itch and continued hair loss while on them but I was expecting to itch to get worse if I don't use them but on the contrary it's getting better.
anyways 4 days off medication is probably not enough time and it can be a conicidence, however the truth is I am so much better in terms of itching at the moment.

[konfusion]

Friday 4th day off med, scalped itched for a couple of minutes last night still less itch compared to the old days, hairs found in drain: 1 (used to be a little ball of hairs in the drain) . still shedding same amount when combing.
I'll keep away from meds until at least monday to see if my scalp feels even better.
this is all confusing.

[konfusion]

so one week off the medication, especially for the last days I've been shedding very little in the shower, difference is unbelievable, it's like 90% improvement.
however the amount I shed when combing hair did not change.
so I am undecided at this point, what do you think, can it be possible that I am better off meds? it seems unlikely but here's my thesis: I had a very slow progressing mbp, maybe I could have mainted a full head of hair all my life. My maternal grandfather died with a full head of hair at 80-something and I look exactly like him, like a copy. when I first started meds in 2006 they helped at first but then my body upregulated AR receptors so I started to see increased thinning. because my shedding and itchy scalp started when I was on meds and it never disappeared despite increasing dose or switching to dutas. It seems to be more drugs I take, more I become susceptible to mpb.
It cannot be that the drugs are not working because I am having slight sides, not much to complaint about but I definitely have lower semen volume.
OR, maybe I am making it up, maybe I would have been slick bald without medication and they only helped to protect this much (this does not explain the suddenly starting and nonstopping itch).
I know there are guys who had a bad reaction to medication but I thought it happens just in a few months after starting fin or dut. I am not sure if that kind of reaction occurs after multiple years on meds.