I have not improved in a year....

[Aames]

What's the point in trying? My addictions and obsessions have consumed me. I have stagnated. Each day consists of me failing and wasting my life away until it's time to sleep and restart the cycle. This is the best I can be and I don't like it. I think I'm in need of a rebirth as a different person that has the ability to cope with life. This form is doomed to being abnormal and incomplete. My window of opportunity to make it has all but closed. My time is up. I can't go on like this anymore.

Winston, I'm sorry if this violates the rules. I think you're a good man despite the bad attitude that I've shown towards you. You don't have to moderate me; you won't have to deal with my insolent posts anymore.

Remember brahs, I love you and hope we all make it someday.