Highlander said something that really made me think differently about psychological labels. I really don't see how it's justifiable to label people that think differently as having some sort of mental disorder. Dave Chappelle put it best when he said that "The worst thing to call somebody is crazy. It's dismissive. I don't understand this person. So they're crazy. That's bull****. These people are not crazy. They strong people. Maybe their environment is a little sick.”
It really makes me happy that a stranger cares about my health; truly, it does. But, I really do not believe I can stop now. I have mpb; with my family history, it is simply unavoidable. These drugs are the only chance I have at a normal, enjoyable life. I spent my entire childhood, including high-school, overweight. I hated myself and wasted the best years of my life being depressed and angry. I squandered my good looks and opportunities to have fun and be a regular teenager. I have no talents, no positive attributes, and no social network of any substance. My personality is tailored to who I am talking to; I have no idea who I really am. Everything about me is borrowed from celebrities, models, Zyzz, or some other person I look up to and want to emulate. My only chance of carving out an identity and having a fun life is through academics (which I am pretty successful at but I am afraid my lack of activities/volunteerism is hurting me, I need to address this but lack the confidence to put myself out there) and beauty. And to obtain this beauty and maximize my genetics, I need these drugs. There is no alternative that I can see.
It really makes me happy that a stranger cares about my health; truly, it does. But, I really do not believe I can stop now. I have mpb; with my family history, it is simply unavoidable. These drugs are the only chance I have at a normal, enjoyable life. I spent my entire childhood, including high-school, overweight. I hated myself and wasted the best years of my life being depressed and angry. I squandered my good looks and opportunities to have fun and be a regular teenager. I have no talents, no positive attributes, and no social network of any substance. My personality is tailored to who I am talking to; I have no idea who I really am. Everything about me is borrowed from celebrities, models, Zyzz, or some other person I look up to and want to emulate. My only chance of carving out an identity and having a fun life is through academics (which I am pretty successful at but I am afraid my lack of activities/volunteerism is hurting me, I need to address this but lack the confidence to put myself out there) and beauty. And to obtain this beauty and maximize my genetics, I need these drugs. There is no alternative that I can see.
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