Female-to-male transgendered; starting T destroyed my hair!

[ssquared2]

Well, I've always had problems with my appearance and am pretty insecure (I'll be the first to admit it). I've had an eating disorder since I was 12, and every time something about my appearance goes haywire and it's out of my control I kinda go nuts. Especially something like hair - partially it's because I "decided" to go on T and potentially ruined my "looks" (whatever there is of that) - I admit, I was a pretty attractive androgynous girl. But I just couldn't stand being female for a second longer and the way people looked at me as such. So I feel like I switched my looks for my emotional well-being, y'know?

It doesn't have much to do with women; I'm pansexual (which is like bisexual but including all the gender spectrums) and also asexual so not looking for sex appeal, but it's just my insecurities about my appearance and such. I don't know really. I just never expected MPB to be part of the package when I turned 20 y'know? I mean, I kinda expected it in my 40's but not in my 20's. It just never occurred to me (especially since my dad (48) has a full head of hair). I want to be happy about my appearance for once in my life. As soon as I managed to start looking male (growing a beard and such), suddenly my hair starts falling out and I've never been able to be happy with my body. I feel like if my hair thickened/grew back/whatever and I got my body size back down (I gained a lot of weight when I started T) to a more reasonable weight instead of the pillsbury dough boy, I might be happier. I might be able to recover from my ED. I might actually be able to talk to people instead of stammer, and feel like someone that someone could think is special enough to be friends with / or have an SO.

Long answer because I didn't rightly know how to reply. I don't know what's in my own brain half the time. And you're not coming off as rude at all. Hopefully that's helpful. Feel free to ask anything else you want.

[mpb47]

Just curious about one thing. You said you expected mpb in your 40's...why is that ?

I asked because I never expected it all!

[sp200]

Hi ssquared2

I need your help.
you have used Fin for how long?
is there any side effects?if there was did they disappear after stopping it?
If you don't mind may I ask do you still have ovaries or got them out.
Please share your exprience.

Note Does any body know ssquared2 ? how Can I contact her?
Please let me know at emali : sp1 at live.ca. Please correct it.
thanks

[ssquared2]

I'll email you (I'm subscribed to this thread regardless of current active participation) and I'm a he not a she

[sp200]

I'll email you (I'm subscribed to this thread regardless of current active participation) and I'm a he not a she

I sent you email.
thanks for contacting and sharing your experience.