Go ahead and try it..... but smile and be confident in your pics...... it would not matter if you had the thickest hair in the world - with that miserable posture, no one will be impressed. Do as i suggested earlier and i think you will be quite surprised...... contact people and see if they contact you. Give it a couple of weeks at least to gauge reaction. Dont settle for a second rate life moaning on these forums. Only you can improve your self worth, nobody else. I would expect that as a former soldier you are competitive and like a challenge..... so get yourself together and start fighting! Only one life my friend : )