What are you living for?

[Buddho]

We're all depressed. It's past hair loss isn't it? I feel like I could cry as I right this... but that's a good thing. We all spend too much time focused on our hair....and what now? It's past that, we feel our lives have been ruined. But maybe this isn't the way it has to be?

A quick bio, I'm 20 in university. I used to have great hair, and I looked great. Always prided myself on my looks. Maybe that's why I lost it all. Now my relationships are strained, and my hair is brutal. Its hard to look at most of the time. It's not just my hair anymore is it... no it's all of life that's hit the shit. I'm a very anxious person. And I don't feel I'm living anymore. The last 2 years of my life have been unmemorable and filled with doing things I didn't enjoy.

I want to live though. If there was ever a way to get the hair back, and get myself out of this anxious and depressed mind looping hell hole, what would it take?

I started asking myself today.... what are you living for? I'm asking myself every moment of the day I feel hopeless and confused....which is most of the time!

You gotta go after what you want. Some of us have great hair here, and are paranoid about it all fading away. Some have hair transplants. Some of us gave up years ago (most of us have in fact right?) and are bald heads. And we aren't proud of it. Others are slowly losing it and watching with obsession every step of the way.

Go out and live. Ask yourself what your living for. Find your purpose. Make yourself happy. Fix those relationships! Love is the real reason we're here right?

I'm done with being lost. I'm shaking as I right this sentence.... but really what are you living for? Don't let it go by without being present for it. Maybe your hair will come back, maybe it'll continue to go. I write this hoping that we can all work towards ending our obsession and truly getting back to life as we always hoped it would be. It can be that way!

What are you living for?