consumed by hair loss
hello everyone, or should i say fellow comrades
i am an 18 year old, a fun loving, happy, crazy girl with great friends and family. But hair loss is really ruining my life. I know life isnt a bed of roses, but still I have done nothing to deserve a bed of thorns. Hair loss is CONSUMING me, im utterly obsessed - each hair that falls sends me into a panic. Maybe some of you can understand, when I seen a strand of hair on my shirt, my heartbeat accelerates and all i see is the hair/s, all i feel is the rising fear. Why me, why again, why yet another strand??
I just dont understand why this is happening now, when Im at my prime in life. As I write this I'm fighting tears. I feel like Im spinning into an abyss, I cant get out, I feel so trapped. I wish this were a dream.
I absolutely understand what some of you mean when people go ''hair loss?? ha like real''. it IS real, dammit. the past two days, the hair loss accelerated.Just sitting down, 30 strands fell out. they were all around me, I felt close to suicidal. I cant stand meeting anyone now, I feel so humiliated. Each time Im out, for I have a holiday job, I feel that everyone is staring at my scalp. I feel like breaking down so often.
The panic and fear is the worst. I think Im on my way to developing a psychological disorder in addition to hair loss if this goes on. I really cannot bear it anymore, I dont know what to do. I have an appointment with the National Skin Institue in my country, but the appointment is weeks from now. I called, biting back tears, this morning to ask if anyone at all had cancelled their appointment. But none did.
I am so afraid of meeting people
I am so afraid of finding hairs on my pillow when I wake up that I wake in cold sweat
I am so afraid of looking at past pictures.
I am so afraid of combing my hair. as 'pinceee' said in another tread, WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO COMB MY HAIR. I fantasize about it everyday, I wish for it so so so much.
What i would give to have a head massage without feeeling so scarde i can barely breathe.
what i would give to bring myself to stop obssesivelt taking pictures of my scalp everyday.
what i would give to be able to wear non-white shirts, for only white shirts allow me to count the fallen hairs most easily.
through the course of this thread, I have already looked down at my shirt countless times, checking, checking, always checking.
Its pure torture. I feel so panicky, so fearful. All i want to do is break downa nd cry or sit still and hope that reduces hair fall or wish that i were in a time and place where hair loss was normal/celebrated.
Im only 18! Im no evil-doer, I just want to be a normal teenager. Why me???
can someone help me please? I JUST WANT TO RETURN TO NORMAL.
Anyway, this has been a great place to vent, and I know that above and beyond our common hair loss problem, we're all wonderful kind BEAUTIFUL people. All the best to everyone here, may lady luck smile upon us all.
Welcome to the forum! First let me say that you've found a safe place to vent and to share your frustration. I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with hair loss at such a young age, but I want you to know that you are not alone. An estimated 40% of hair loss sufferers in the U.S. are women. Female hair loss is a silent epidemic of tremendous proportions and I understand the pain that you’re feeling since I have been in contact with countless women throughout my career who have suffered with this devastating disease of the spirit.
There are some great online resources available to you, but I want you to be very careful when researching on the net. The vast majority of hair loss related websites are selling or promoting bogus products or services. Always look for the American Hair Loss Association seal to insure that you are researching safely.
I’m providing a link the the American Hair Loss Association's Women’s Hair Loss section and a link to my personal story.
Women's Hair Loss
We’re all here for you, so feel free to vent or to ask about any concerns you might have.
Founder, American Hair Loss Association
Host, The Bald Truth Radio Show
I am not a physician. My opinions and knowledge concerning hair loss and its treatment are based on extensive research and reporting on the subject as a consumer advocate and hair loss educator. My views and comments on the subject should not be taken as medical advice. Always seek the advice of a medical professional when considering medical and surgical treatment.
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